My husband and I took a spontaneous road trip to Alabama last weekend. By no means are we groupies (I unfortunately realized this year that college boys are too young for me…I’m getting so old!). But we do like watching soccer. On Friday, IU our Alma Mater, won a semi-final game qualifying them for the National Championship on Sunday. Around two on Saturday, while doing some work and I texted my husband, “Hey–let’s go to Alabama”. He writes back “Is this you procrastinating from work?” Me: “Um…yes? But I’m serious” So an hour later we found ourselves pulling out of our parking lot headed to Birmingham, Alabama–heartland of America.
My adrenaline had me running through the hour of getting ready, but as we get into the car I started panicking “WHAT AM I DOING? WHY DID I THINK THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA?” Here’s a list of the things I was worried about:
- I had work that needed to be done
- I wanted to clean the bathroom
- I wanted to cook and freeze some food for the week
Now…these were all legit concerns, but I had weighed them (albeit briefly) before I sent my husband the text about going. But know what my largest concern was? BEING ANXIOUS! Yep, I was worried about triggering a mood swing because we would be getting completely off my schedule. I’d be up late, sleeping in a different place, and traveling–all which can cause anxiety for me. And wait, does this idea mean I’m going into a manic swing? Should I not go??
But you know what!
I NEEDED TO GET THE HECK OUT OF MY OWN WAY!
Sure, keeping a schedule is good for me. But know what else is good? Spending time with the hubby. Building good memories. Feeling like a “normal” person. AND HAVING FUN!
Sometimes, we just need to get out of our own way and let ourselves cut loose. Having a mental illness is alot of work and sometimes to stay healthy you do miss out on stuff–so give yourself some space to have fun. This spontaneous trip was great and it reminded me how much better I can feel when I let myself have a good time.
So tonight–in honor of this post I am going to make myself a peppermint milkshake. And I give all of you permission to do so as well! Screw calories and do something fun!