So–I total fail on my part about posting to this collection. Apparently there was nothing else I wanted the rest of the world to know…or too much to decide where to start. But I’m hoping to do better this time….onto Number 2!
Have you ever read one of those “Ten things your guy wished you knew” or “Ten things your mother-in-law would never tell you but thinks you should know” (though in many cases—unfortunately for you, there’s nothing your mother in law wouldn’t tell you). Well I wanted to create a lists of things that those of us who struggle with mental illness wished the rest of the world knew—and hopefully get insight from my support team about what they wish I knew!
Number Two: I want to be able to tell you I want to die, wish I was hit by a bus crossing the street, and don’t believe life is worth living…and not be worried that you will put me on suicide watch. I want you to understand there is a difference between wantingto die, and planning to die….
I am nervous about posting this one, because suicidal threats and talk of death should never be taken lightly. In some cases it is essential for family, friends, and healthcare professionals to recognize a suicidal intent or plan. Please do not think I’m discounting the seriousness of this issue.
But the point of this post refers to something different. I know many fellow adventurers who would agree that there are many many times when they want to die and feel like life is pointless or not worth living. But they have no intention or plan of ending their life. In fact, they are 100% certain they will not. In these moments, I want to be able to express my depression–but also know you are not secretly removing all dangerous items from my house.
Disclaimer: Not all of these thought will reflect all people, in the same way not all “Ten things your guy wished you knew” would relate to my husband—some will not even relate to me. They are thoughts/concerns/opinions I’ve heard when talking with fellow adventurers along the journey that is mental illness.